Untitled.

So...hey! Entah kenapa gue sekarang merasa setiap hari jadi useless&I don't have a spirit like I used to have. Semakin males sekolah, semakin males belajar, semakin ingin tidur aja di rumah terus gak bangun-bangun. Bukannya struggle for national exams but I just don't do something. Like I want to sleep&never wake up again. Maybe I'm still living in my past&don't want to look forward. I wish I would get my spirit again, &I wish everything would be still alright to God.

Have you prayed about it as much as you've talked about it?

Matthew 21:22

Super panic!

I have been slept for 2hours&I have been let my skype still being on. &when I woke up to check it I just called him&her in the same time...........panik gaksih? Waktu gue tidur tabnya ada di bapake&he said he didn't use my skype. Sebelum dipake bokap kayaknya sih dipake ije but he said the same words too. Yaudah karena "her" masih on gue tanya sama doi, and luckily she said she didn't receive the call notify from me. So I thought "he" wouldn't receive too. Bagus deh biar gue gak dikira nyari2.

Time flies, people change, memories don't.

If I told you I could give these up, I lied. Honestly, I just miss my old times, just want to go back to the times that made my life so happy but just can't, including the times when I was with you closely. Because even time flies so fast&people change, memories still be a place for us to remember even if we can't stay forever. &you have made me in love with you. I have been heard Untitled by Maliq for this one day&I didn't get bored. I can't hold you more tight again because I'm just wasting my time, like I'm waiting for nothing. I have given up but I'm still hoping that you would do the same with me, yes, chasing me. But you didn't.

Colors.

I don't know why I wanna post this but I am interesting about colors, and yeah when I went to bookstore with my friend 3 days ago to buy some tools for her drawing class I just found some cool color names:

Cadmium. Barium. Canary. Acid. Napoli. Mignonette. Chartreuse. Anise. Celadon. Putty. Nile. Veronese. Malachite. Verdigris. Teal. Flagstone. Frost. Tahitian. Robin's Egg. Cyanine. Lapis Lazuli. Phthalo. Manganise. Ultramarine. Mahogany. Antwerp. Burnt Sienna. Bereley Beige. Suntan. Redwood. Caribe Cocoa. Burnt Umber. Brick Beige. Dull Ivory. Lionet. Hydrangea. Mauve. Crimson. Ochre. Cerise. Sardonyx. Prussian. Agate. Maize. Fluorite. Vermilion. Clematis. Stratospheric. Cashmere. Prune. Marigold.

Some of those names covered with some colors that we have known, like Frost Blue, Cadmium Red, et cetera. I love Mauve&Lapis Lazuli.

Learn to let him go, wino. He's not yours. Let God busy writing your love story. Think about the perfect guy that God give to you sooner.

The worst feelings.

When you bored as hell.
When you have a big crush on someone&you can't lie that you love his smile&his silly&his freaking attitude.
When you want a little bit refreshing  but you can't do it because some reasons that make you are so busy.
When you have an appointment but it hasn't done.
When you can't go anywhere because your parents tell you to study for better future.
When you have some options that make you feel dizzy about study abroad.
When you give up on someone who gives you no decision.
When you miss that guy who makes you feel annoyed because he is pretending to be a stupid person.
When you are compared by somebody with a person from different culture.
When you still check your phone but you realize that he isn't there.
When you stuck on memories he made.
When you are like not needed by everybody.
When you realized the only way was moved forward.
When you feel so alone.
When you have to get something you struggled but it just was gotten.
When you caught a conversation between our crush with another girl in midnight.
When you ended up your conversation with him because you have given up&you have promised you didn't want to hurt yourself anymore.
When you know you are so exaggeration in limit.
When you are blamed by a person but not depend on your fault&you just keep your mouth not because you can't defend but you are tired to shut their mouth, just wasting your time.
When you get attention by ignoring but they are ignoring you too&it's not fair.
When you have been waiting God's answers.
When you are too selfish but you have a big compassion.

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