21

March 21st, he's going to 20. Pretty old I think. And one thing in my mind is giving him a surprise, crazy thought but I bet I will do. Now I have been searching for gift, and cake. Jadi mau ngesurprisin dia after school gitu and wait to see him arrive at home and then I give it. And the problem is................gue terlalu gila buat ngelakuin ini semua. Gue gak begitu deket sama dia eh tiba-tiba main ngasih dia surprise gitu. But my friends support me to do this, yeah they're more than crazy. Yak the first thing I thought after I got home is writing in this blog. Gue emang gak akan ngebatalin this surprise but malunya itu looooooh. Gini nih kronologisnya: kan dia pulang bareng cicak dan tiw nah biar tiw gak ikut campur dan jadi congor, gue nunggu kambing sampe bener-bener udah di rumah. And then I bring the cake with his friends.......after that I will give the gift. And if I dare enough, I will tell him about my feeling. Hopefully I will but actually I shame. Oh ya. I wanna share something. Semenjak anak-anak satu kelas ngecengin gue sama kambing, gue ngerasa jadi awkward gitu, mau ngomong tapi malu. Apalagi setelah kejadian nay dinasehatin sama dia waktu praktek aerobik itu. Makin melting gue. Today I almost didn't talk to him, gatau takut kali ya gue padahal dianya biasa aja. Terus nay bilang kalo sikapnya kambing ke gue tuh beda sama sikap kambing ke cewe-cewe yang lain. Tapi bisa jadi kan gara-gara dia pengen ngehindarin gue takut dikira php? Yeah, I don't know. Only God knows. Dan sekarang I don't want to fall deep again 'cause it hurts, you know. Let it all go, what's yours will be yours right? And here I go...a period of loving you, even if it's true or not. Hahahahahahahaha apasih gue-_-